The Toy Box Years: Angry

The Creators of the Toy Box Years

The creators of the Toy Box Years are my two beautiful daughters and wonderful, handsome soldier husband.

"Nani" (our oldest) is a 11 year old 6th grader who loves Taylor Swift, ballet, books, fashion designing and sewing. Ask her what she wants to be when she grows up and it changes daily to anything from "an artist" to "a teacher" to "a singer/dancer". Nani is also currently fighting a battle against brain cancer -- recently diagnosed in June 2016.

"Nudgie" (our youngest) is a very smiley, very happy, very giggly, very spirited 8 year old 3rd Grader who's favorite toys are anything that gives mommy an anxiety attack - ladders, stepstools, the climbing wall at the playground. Like her sister, she has a love of reading and coloring, loves gymnastics and still provides mommy lots of snuggle time!

"My Marine" is my high school sweetheart. We've been married over 20 years and met when we were 17. (You do the math....) His favorite toys are Blackhawk helicopters, the lawnmower, our steam cleaner, and microbrew beer bottles. My husband is also my hero in that he proudly serves his country as a Blackhawk crew chief (hence his favorite toy!). And need I say that there is nothing hotter than my man in uniform!

All About Me......

Once upon a time I had a career and worked in the corporate world. Once upon a time, I dreamed about leaving that all behind to follow my true calling -- being a wife and mommy.

The first part of my calling was fulfilled in 1995 when I married my Marine (now soldier) and my love. Little did I know that being a military wife would change me in so many ways and that because of that, I would have an extended family all over the world from Japan, to California, to North Carolina.

The second part of my calling took a little doing, but I finally achieved that dream in 2004 with the birth of our first child, followed 4 years later by her baby sister.

So now, when someone asks me what I do for a living - I simply smile and say proudly that I'm following my calling - I'm a mommy and a wife -- and I couldn't be HAPPIER -- I'm living in the Toy Box Years!!

An angry stream of consciousness this morning......watch out for the steam venting from my brain!

I'm angry that a bunch of pompous politicians sit in their cushy offices in Washington D.C. and hold our fate in their hands.

I'm angry that both sides can't put aside their egos and think about what's best for the people who voted them into office - thinking at the time that a change was going to be made. Yep - here's your change, America.....

I'm angry that our President spent more time focusing on Libya rather than calling members of Congress into his office to say fix this NOW!

I'm angry that our Vice President spent 6 days skiing here in Colorado while I sit here trying to figure out how I'm going to make ends meet if the government shuts down.

I'm a little angry at God right now. I found out last night that a friend of mine lost her baby boy. She was around 35 weeks. What makes this much more painful is that last year - around the same time - she lost her baby girl, Lylac, at about 35 weeks.

I'm angry at myself for not placing more trust in my faith. I'm angry that I'm worrying when I know, deep down, that God will provide - one way or another.

I'm angry at my family. For some reason, they feel the need to "protect me so that I don't worry" - as they like to say. A few days before my mom flew out here, my dad was in the ER for stomach pains. Nobody called me. I found out when my dad let it slip during our phone conversation. I was angry. I'm angry that I'm out here in Colorado and not there in Pennsylvania. I'm angry that no one felt that it was important enough to call me and let me know.

Whew! That felt good! Now off for another cup of coffee!