I've Cried A Lot.....

The last ten days I've cried.....a lot.....for a lot of reasons.

Ten days ago, My Marine came home and told me that he would be deploying to Iraq in May -- and I cried.

My beloved German Shepherd, Mitzi, has been really sick. She'll be 15 next month and was my first dog -- and my first baby. I'm worried that her time is near, and while I tell her that it's ok for her to go -- I'm not ready for her to go -- and I've cried.

My beautiful baby girls have done such adorable things -- like holding hands and attempting to sing Christmas carols (at least as much as a 5 year old and a 16-month old can....) -- and I've cried.

I've peeked in on them in the middle of the night -- watching them sleep and hearing their little baby breathing, so peaceful and so innocent -- and I've cried.

My first-born baby girl turned 5. I remembered the day she was born like it was yesterday. She was a true gift from God. As I remember her past five years and what a blessing she is to me -- I've cried.

I became so overwhelmed by our friends' generosity and love for Nani - which was made evident during her birthday party -- and I've cried.

I turned 40 -- and I've cried. (Enough said about that!)

I had a fight with My Marine -- over stupid stuff like laundry and the fact that my eBay stuff is taking over the house. I immediately became defensive -- and I've cried.

My Marine called me from work to tell me that now he is NOT deploying in May and that they've moved him out of that unit -- AND I'VE CRIED!!!

Big things, little things, happy things, sad things, worry, praise.....I've cried through it all. It's amazing how a good cry can make you feel so much better afterwards!